games

Even if I can't say what I really think, I'm pretty sure I won't be playing Backgammon in a long, long time.

a matter of choice, I'd say.

meaningful words

One Art

The art of losing isn't hard to master;
so many things seem filled with the intent
to be lost that their loss is no disaster,

Lose something every day. Accept the fluster
of lost door keys, the hour badly spent.
The art of losing isn't hard to master.

Then practice losing farther, losing faster:
places, and names, and where it was you meant
to travel. None of these will bring disaster.

I lost my mother's watch. And look! my last, or
next-to-last, of three beloved houses went.
The art of losing isn't hard to master.

I lost two cities, lovely ones. And, vaster,
some realms I owned, two rivers, a continent.
I miss them, but it wasn't a disaster.

-- Even losing you (the joking voice, a gesture
I love) I shan't have lied. It's evident
the art of losing's not too hard to master
though it may look like (Write it!) a disaster.

Elizabeth Bishop

save

You saw me standing by the wall, corner of a main street
And the lights are flashing on your window sill
All alone ain't much fun so you're looking for the thrill
And you know just what it takes and where to go.

Don't save a prayer for me now.
Save it til the morning after
No don't say a prayer for me now.
Save it til the morning after

Feel the breeze deep on the inside look down into the well
If you can you'll see the world in all his fire
Take a chance (like all dreamers can't find another way.)
You don't have to dream it all, just live a day.

Save it til the morning after
Save it til the morning after
Save it til the morning after....

Pretty looking road I try to hold the rising floods that fill my skin
Don't ask me why 'Ill keep my promise I'll melt the ice
And you wanted to dance, so I asked you to dance
But fear is in your soul,
Some people call it a one-night stand, but we can call it paradise

Save it til the morning after
Save it til the morning after
Save it til the morning after
Save it til the morning after

Friday bonus

I can't fight this feeling any longer
And yet I'm still afraid to let it flow
What started out as friendship, has grown stronger
I only wish I had the strength to let it show

I tell myself that I can't hold out forever
I said there is no reason for my fear
'Cause I feel so secure when we're together
You give my life direction
You make everything so clear

And even as I wander
I'm keeping you in sight
You're a candle in the window
On a cold, dark winter's night
And I'm getting closer than I ever thought I might

And I can't fight this feeling anymore
I've forgotten what I started fighting for
It's time to bring this ship into the shore
And throw away the oars, forever

'Cause I can't fight this feeling anymore
I've forgotten what I started fighting for
And if I have to crawl upon the floor
Come crashing through your door
Baby, I can't fight this feeling anymore

My life has been such a whirlwind since I saw you
I've been running round in circles in my mind
And it always seems that I'm following you, girl
'Cause you take me to the places that alone I'd never find

And even as I wander I'm keeping you in sight
You're a candle in the window on a cold, dark winter's night
And I'm getting closer than I ever thought I might

And I can't fight this feeling anymore
I've forgotten what I started fighting for
Its' time to bring this ship into the shore
And throw away the oars, forever

'Cause I can't fight this feeling anymore
I've forgotten what I started fighting for
And if I have to crawl upon the floor
Come crushing through your door
Baby, I can't fight this feeling anymore.

a sunny day

There was a time some time ago
When every sunrise meant a sunny day, oh a sunny day
But now when the morning light shines in
It only disturbs the dreamland where I lay, oh where I lay
I used to thank the lord when I'd wake
For life and love and the golden sky above me
But now I pray the stars will go on shining, you see in my dreams you love me

Daybreak is a joyful time
Just listen to the songbird harmonies, oh the harmonies
But I wish the dawn would never come
I wish there was silence in the trees, oh the trees
If only I could stay asleep, at least I could pretend you're thinking of me
cause nighttime is the one time I am happy, you see in my dreams

Chorus:
We climb and climb and at the top we fly
Let the world go on below us, we are lost in time
And I don't know really what it means
All I know is that you love me, in my dreams

I keep hoping one day I'll awaken, and somehow she'll be lying by my side
And as I wonder if the dawn is really breaking
She touches me and suddenly I'm alive.

propaganda

You've been just an early entry
In my diary
Another page I had to fill
Inside a book of a thousand
I turn the page but my heart still aches
Living my life without you
It seems like something is missing
Something is missing without you
I close my eyes and remember why
So much is missing without you
But when I start to write again

There's a gap in my life
That's too large to fill
A wound in my heart
That no doctor can heal
There's a ghost in my mind
Who is haunting all night
There is trust deep inside
Brings you back to my side
Myself deceiving

You've been another colour
To the picture Im painting
From the memory I have of you
But all the colours turn into blue
What you see is a part of me
Living my life without you
It seems like something is missing
Something is missing without you
But when I start to write again

It seems like something is missing
Something is missing without you
I close my eyes but I must be blind
So much is missing without you
Life goes on
I will be strong
Living my life without you
But once in a while I realise
That so much is missing
Without you

There's a gap in my life
That's too large to fill
A wound in my heart
That no doctor can heal
There's a ghost in my mind
Who is haunting all night
There is trust deep inside
Brings you back to my side

There's a gap in my life
That's too large to fill
A wound in my heart
That no doctor can heal
There's a ghost in my mind
Who is haunting all night
There is trust deep inside
Myself deceiving

Myself deceiving
But when I start to write again

There's a gap in my life
That's too large to fill
A wound in my heart
That no doctor can heal
There's a ghost in my mind
Who is haunting all night
There is trust deep inside
Myself deceiving

There's a gap in my life
That's too large to fill
A wound in my heart
That no doctor can heal
There's a ghost in my mind
Who is haunting all night
There is trust deep inside
Myself deceiving

Myself deceiving

song mood

Hey!

I'm still in the eighties' mood.
Bear it with me, I'm having a great time stirring memories...


Somewhere, over the rainbow, way up high.
There's a land that I heard of Once in a lullaby.
Somewhere, over the rainbow, skies are blue.
And the dreams that you dare to dream
Really do come true.
Someday I'll wish upon a star and wake up where the clouds are far Behind me.
Where troubles melt like lemon drops, Away above the chimney tops.
That's where you'll find me.
Somewhere, over the rainbow, bluebirds fly. Birds fly over the rainbow,
Why then - oh, why can't I?
If happy little bluebirds fly beyond the rainbow,
Why, why can't I?

eternal

Close your eyes, give me your hand, darling
Do you feel my heart beating, do you understand?
Do you feel the same, am I only dreaming?
Is this burning an eternal flame?

I believe it's meant to be, darling
I watch when you are sleeping, you belong to me
Do you feel the same, am I only dreaming
Or is this burning an eternal flame?

Say my name, sun shines through the rain
A whole life so lonely, and then you come and ease the pain
I don't want to lose this feeling


Say my name, sun shines through the rain
A whole life so lonely, and then you come and ease the pain
I don't want to lose this feeling

Close your eyes and give me your hand
Do you feel my heart beating, do you understand?
Do you feel the same, am I only dreaming
Or is this burning an eternal flame?

Is this burning an eternal flame?

(Close your eyes and give me your hand
Do you feel my heart beating, do you understand?
Do you feel the same, am I only dreaming
Or is this burning an eternal flame?)

it rings so many bells

De Cita a Ciegas...

[...]
LG
Sí, es. Después de estar con alguien diez años necesitás una relación fácil que te cure. Un otro que te cure, que te devuelva la fé. El problema es que ese otro nunca es esencial. Es una relación de tres meses, por ejemplo. Una muleta, alguien que te ayuda a hacer ese duelo. Alguién de transición. Una enfermera que te ayuda a caminar de nuevo, te lava las heridas, te hace la sopa sin sal. Y recién cuando estás curado podés encontrar a alguien especial. Yo no quiero ser esa enfermera, Matías. Curate solo o contratá personal eventual. Emborrachate, dejale mensajes, cogé con putas. Curate como puedas.

Matías
¡No, no es así! ffffffffffffzzzzzzzzzzzz es como fffffffzzzzzzzz no es fffffffffffz no me fz interesa ffzzzzz no la veo más, es nadie, no es importante.

LG
Es tan importante que ahora mismo estamos hablando de lo no importante que es ella, en vez de hablar de lo importante que soy yo.

Matías
Nooooooooooooooooo fzzzzz zzzzzzzz zzzzzzzzz no fz no ffffffffffffffff fffffffffffffff fffffffffffffz zz ffffffzzzz fzfz fffffffffzzz zzzzz fzzzzzzzz zzzzzzzzzzzz.

LG
Va a llegar un día en el que, sin darte cuenta, vas a dejar de ir a sus fiestas, vas a dejar de hablar de las peleas con ella, vas a dejar de decir que es nadie, vas a dejar de verla en otras mujeres. Vas a dejarla. Pero hasta ese día, no podés estar con nadie. Así que andate a la cama, contá ex novias y dormite.

Matías
fffffffffffffz no no no ffffffffffz abrime fffffffz no fffffffffffffffffffff fffz hablemos fffzz fz favor fzzzzzzzzz

LG
No tengo más nada que decirte. Pero no te transformes en Marcelo, sé bueno.

Sé que siguió hablando porque antes de colgar lo escuché. No sé qué más dijo porque me fui a dormir. Me dejó una nota por debajo de la puerta pero no me interesa leerla. Hoy tampoco fue a la oficina. Rodrigo, en cambio, me dejó dos mensajes para saber si estoy bien. Quizás lo llame. Todos necesitamos un enfermero de vez en cuando.
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taken from here
MATIAS
En algún momento vamos a tener que hablar. Quedate, hablamos ahora
y terminamos de una vez con este asunto.

LG
No quiero hablar. Me quiero ir.

MATIAS
Es solo hablar.

LG
No, no es sólo hablar. Cuando un vendedor de biblias te
toca la puerta no lo tenés que dejar pasar. Nunca.
Porque si lo dejás pasar, si abrís la puerta sólo para que te muestre,
te termina vendiendo la biblia siempre.

MATIAS
No entiendo.

LG
Que no es solo hablar. En algunos casos, como con
el vendedor de biblias, hablar es sólo el principio.

MATIAS
¿Entonces?

LG
(Saludándolo para irme)
Entonces nada…
La única forma de que no te vendan una biblia no es no comprar.
Directamente no hay que abrir la puerta.

memories

I love them...

American Beauty

a phrase I just heard:

never underestimate the power of denial...

anything to do with my life?
well, I've just shaken off an angina I caught. Translation: I'm back!

housekeeping

See? I told you: I'm at my wits' end and that's the reason why I spent 2 hours of my life ironing!!!

Now it's high time I took a course on how-to-keep-the-fridge-cleaner-than-ever.

human

I love this song!

I did my best to notice
When the call came down the line
Up to the platform of surrender
I was brought but I was kind
And sometimes I get nervous
When I see an open door
Close your eyes
Clear your heart...
Cut the cord

Are we human?
Or are we dancer?
My sign is vital
My hands are cold
And I'm on my knees
Looking for the answer
Are we human?
Or are we dancer?

Pay my respects to grace and virtue
Send my condolences to good
Give my regards to soul and romance,
They always did the best they could
And so long to devotion
You taught me everything I know
Wave goodbye
Wish me well..
You've gotta let me go

Are we human?
Or are we dancer?
My sign is vital
My hands are cold
And I'm on my knees
Looking for the answer
Are we human?
Or are we dancer?

Will your system be alright
When you dream of home tonight?
There is no message we're receiving
Let me know is your heart still beating

Are we human?
Or are we dancer?
My sign is vital
My hands are cold
And I'm on my knees
Looking for the answer

You've gotta let me know

Are we human?
Or are we dancer?
My sign is vital
My hands are cold
And I'm on my knees
Looking for the answer
Are we human
Or are we dancer?

Are we human?
Or are we dancer?

Are we human
Or are we dancer?

lemonade

I'm sitting here in the boring room
It's just another rainy Sunday afternoon
I'm wasting my time
I got nothing to do
I'm hanging around
I'm waiting for you
But nothing ever happens and I wonder

I'm driving around in my car
I'm driving too fast
I'm driving too far
I'd like to change my point of view
I feel so lonely
I'm waiting for you
But nothing ever happens and I wonder

I wonder how
I wonder why
Yesterday you told me 'bout the blue blue sky
And all that I can see is just a yellow lemon-tree
I'm turning my head up and down
I'm turning turning turning turning turning around
And all that I can see is just another lemon-tree

I'm sitting here
I miss the power
I'd like to go out taking a shower
But there's a heavy cloud inside my head
I feel so tired
Put myself into bed
Well, nothing ever happens and I wonder

Isolation is not good for me
Isolation I don't want to sit on the lemon-tree

I'm steppin' around in the desert of joy
Baby anyhow I'll get another toy
And everything will happen and you wonder

I wonder how
I wonder why
Yesterday you told me 'bout the blue blue sky
And all that I can see is just another lemon-tree
I'm turning my head up and down
I'm turning turning turning turning turning around
And all that I can see is just a yellow lemon-tree
And I wonder, wonder

I wonder how
I wonder why
Yesterday you told me 'bout the blue blue sky
And all that I can see, and all that I can see, and all that I can see
Is just a yellow lemon-tree

old-time happiness